As Togusa finds his words again, and his apologies, Yin searches her pockets for her vaporizer.
"Nah, it's ... fine." It wasn't fine. Yin takes a deep inhale from the device, blowing out a cloud of sickly sweet vapor — pumpkin spice scent? — before slouching in the seat. "I just didn't expect it."
Zwei sits against one of her legs, his presence a comfort to her even if the sudden withdrawal from playtime may have perplexed his new canine friend. Priorities and all.
"Fuck. You want to know what I think? I have no idea how he'll deal with it. I'm not in Amputees Anonymous or anything." The bitter tone was unnecessary but unavoidable. She put the palm of her hand to her forehead and just stared at the blue light coming from the end of her device, muttering. "There's always pain..."
It's not fine. That's been half of what Togusa has been trying to make evident to James, that it doesn't have to be fine. So, seeing another person and their own methods of minimizing and coping is- an experience.
And yet there are some similarities between her and James. The slight protective confrontational attitude, mellower in Yin than it is in James. Keep that extra step of emotional distance between you and the people around you. Togusa can understand it.
"Everybody's experience is different," Togusa admits. He shifts forwards, leans an elbow on his knee to get a better look over Yin. "Do people act like it's all over, for you, now? Just because," he nods at her arm, "you have a replacement?" Another mistake he'd like to avoid. Her life is still different. It doesn't take away the pain she's experiencing.
"My boss at the movie place thought so," she begins with a sneer before taking on a tone that was obviously meant to mimic an older, gruff sort of person. "'Does that mean you'll be wanting to take on more hours, more responsibility around here? Pull some more of your own weight?'"
She takes another puff. "I almost told him where he can put his extra weight, but as it turns out? He was joking. It was a joke that I could be put to work like anyone else. A joke that I was any less broken than I was months ago when I started wearing this every day.
"Not that I'm bitter about it." Yin says bitterly, with a bitter expression.
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"Nah, it's ... fine." It wasn't fine. Yin takes a deep inhale from the device, blowing out a cloud of sickly sweet vapor — pumpkin spice scent? — before slouching in the seat. "I just didn't expect it."
Zwei sits against one of her legs, his presence a comfort to her even if the sudden withdrawal from playtime may have perplexed his new canine friend. Priorities and all.
"Fuck. You want to know what I think? I have no idea how he'll deal with it. I'm not in Amputees Anonymous or anything." The bitter tone was unnecessary but unavoidable. She put the palm of her hand to her forehead and just stared at the blue light coming from the end of her device, muttering. "There's always pain..."
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And yet there are some similarities between her and James. The slight protective confrontational attitude, mellower in Yin than it is in James. Keep that extra step of emotional distance between you and the people around you. Togusa can understand it.
"Everybody's experience is different," Togusa admits. He shifts forwards, leans an elbow on his knee to get a better look over Yin. "Do people act like it's all over, for you, now? Just because," he nods at her arm, "you have a replacement?" Another mistake he'd like to avoid. Her life is still different. It doesn't take away the pain she's experiencing.
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"My boss at the movie place thought so," she begins with a sneer before taking on a tone that was obviously meant to mimic an older, gruff sort of person. "'Does that mean you'll be wanting to take on more hours, more responsibility around here? Pull some more of your own weight?'"
She takes another puff. "I almost told him where he can put his extra weight, but as it turns out? He was joking. It was a joke that I could be put to work like anyone else. A joke that I was any less broken than I was months ago when I started wearing this every day.
"Not that I'm bitter about it." Yin says bitterly, with a bitter expression.